1 00:00:02,168 --> 00:00:03,586 Tim's organizing his life. 2 00:00:03,586 --> 00:00:05,005 He wants you to have this. 3 00:00:05,005 --> 00:00:06,506 He doesn't want to hear from you. 4 00:00:06,506 --> 00:00:08,258 Is this milk drinking a habit of yours? 5 00:00:08,258 --> 00:00:11,177 I think my parents were hoping it would make me taller. 6 00:00:12,846 --> 00:00:15,306 - Who's my boy? - I am! I am! 7 00:00:15,306 --> 00:00:16,349 Do I scare you? 8 00:00:16,349 --> 00:00:17,517 Why would you scare me? 9 00:00:17,517 --> 00:00:18,685 I can handle myself. 10 00:00:18,685 --> 00:00:21,396 The question is, "Can you handle me?" 11 00:00:21,396 --> 00:00:23,231 Mr. McLeod's our head of security. 12 00:00:23,231 --> 00:00:24,816 We've begun issuing summons 13 00:00:24,816 --> 00:00:28,486 to those reported or suspected of homosexuality. 14 00:00:28,486 --> 00:00:29,904 Have you ever considered yourself 15 00:00:29,904 --> 00:00:31,406 to be in love with another male? 16 00:00:32,949 --> 00:00:35,035 Pigs out of the Castro! Pigs-- 17 00:00:35,035 --> 00:00:36,494 Trying to get yourself killed? Come on! 18 00:00:36,494 --> 00:00:38,747 I've loved a man for 20 years 19 00:00:38,747 --> 00:00:40,582 and lived with the consequences. 20 00:00:40,582 --> 00:00:42,709 Do you have any idea what fucking courage that takes? 21 00:00:42,709 --> 00:00:44,044 Jerome lives with us. 22 00:00:44,044 --> 00:00:46,087 Former student. Homeless when I met him. 23 00:00:46,087 --> 00:00:48,381 Kimberly, there are things about your father 24 00:00:48,381 --> 00:00:49,883 I don't understand. 25 00:00:49,883 --> 00:00:53,219 But I loved the life we made together. 26 00:00:53,219 --> 00:00:55,972 I wish my dad could be as cool as you. 27 00:00:55,972 --> 00:00:58,725 Your father loves you the best way he knows how. 28 00:00:58,725 --> 00:01:01,227 Skippy, my boy's dead. 29 00:01:01,853 --> 00:01:03,229 He's dead. 30 00:01:03,229 --> 00:01:05,065 I've wasted all this time. 31 00:01:05,065 --> 00:01:07,150 - No. - My life on you. 32 00:01:07,150 --> 00:01:08,401 I have to make a quick trip. 33 00:01:08,401 --> 00:01:09,569 Just two or three days. 34 00:01:09,569 --> 00:01:10,862 The rental agent's coming on Friday. 35 00:01:10,862 --> 00:01:12,030 I'd like you to be home for that. 36 00:01:12,030 --> 00:01:13,156 I will. 37 00:01:13,156 --> 00:01:15,241 Lucy, you're everything to me. 38 00:01:15,241 --> 00:01:16,409 If I was everything, 39 00:01:16,409 --> 00:01:18,078 you wouldn't be going where you're going. 40 00:01:18,078 --> 00:01:20,246 You said you know someone connected to the governor. 41 00:01:20,246 --> 00:01:22,248 Convince him to set up a meeting 42 00:01:22,248 --> 00:01:23,583 with the governor's chief of staff. 43 00:01:23,583 --> 00:01:25,418 Skippy, I can't make that call. 44 00:01:25,418 --> 00:01:26,586 I have a family. 45 00:01:26,586 --> 00:01:27,921 I have a right to protect them. 46 00:01:27,921 --> 00:01:30,090 And I have a right not to die! 47 00:01:30,090 --> 00:01:31,758 Tim's had another seizure. 48 00:01:31,758 --> 00:01:34,094 It was severe, but they were able to pull him out of it. 49 00:01:34,094 --> 00:01:35,762 I seem to be always searching for something 50 00:01:35,762 --> 00:01:37,931 to lose myself in completely. 51 00:01:37,931 --> 00:01:40,141 It's like we say in seminary, 52 00:01:40,141 --> 00:01:41,768 beyond measure. 53 00:01:41,768 --> 00:01:43,394 I have to go. 54 00:01:43,394 --> 00:01:45,438 I have to get over you. 55 00:01:45,438 --> 00:01:47,649 I didn't raise my boy to be a soldier. 56 00:01:48,274 --> 00:01:49,275 Hawk. 57 00:01:49,275 --> 00:01:51,111 Promise you won't write. 58 00:01:51,444 --> 00:01:52,737 I won't. 59 00:03:43,932 --> 00:03:44,974 Yeah. 60 00:03:46,559 --> 00:03:47,894 It's me. 61 00:03:47,894 --> 00:03:49,520 Lucy. 62 00:03:52,106 --> 00:03:54,734 Yeah, I thought it was the hospital. 63 00:03:54,734 --> 00:03:57,028 It's been a rough 48 hours. 64 00:03:57,028 --> 00:03:59,489 - Hawk-- - I'm sorry I haven't called. 65 00:03:59,489 --> 00:04:00,865 Hawk. 66 00:04:01,199 --> 00:04:02,242 I'm here. 67 00:04:04,118 --> 00:04:05,119 Where? 68 00:04:06,120 --> 00:04:07,914 San Francisco. 69 00:04:07,914 --> 00:04:10,166 I didn't hear from you. I was worried. 70 00:04:10,166 --> 00:04:11,918 Is everything all right? Are the kids okay? 71 00:04:11,918 --> 00:04:14,254 No, nothing like that. Everyone's fine. 72 00:04:14,254 --> 00:04:15,672 I was worried about you. 73 00:04:16,422 --> 00:04:17,632 I am worried. 74 00:04:20,885 --> 00:04:22,178 No, I'm fine. 75 00:04:22,178 --> 00:04:23,513 I'm fine. 76 00:04:25,598 --> 00:04:27,100 What about the house? 77 00:04:27,809 --> 00:04:29,519 The movers. 78 00:04:29,519 --> 00:04:30,937 All that's on hold. 79 00:04:34,816 --> 00:04:35,984 I see. 80 00:04:36,943 --> 00:04:38,111 We need to talk. 81 00:04:54,335 --> 00:04:56,337 California Governor George Deukmejian 82 00:04:56,337 --> 00:04:58,256 is being pressured by gay rights advocates 83 00:04:58,256 --> 00:05:00,425 to sign legislation aimed at preventing 84 00:05:00,425 --> 00:05:03,094 AIDS patients from being fired or denied housing. 85 00:05:03,094 --> 00:05:04,304 Look who's here. 86 00:05:05,471 --> 00:05:07,015 Let's take you for a stroll. 87 00:05:07,015 --> 00:05:08,641 Careful with the scarf. 88 00:05:08,641 --> 00:05:10,393 I don't want to go out like Isadora. 89 00:05:10,393 --> 00:05:11,728 Mm-hmm. 90 00:05:11,728 --> 00:05:13,396 According to the governor, 91 00:05:13,396 --> 00:05:15,189 compassion for victims of AIDS 92 00:05:15,189 --> 00:05:16,774 is not a sufficient reason 93 00:05:16,774 --> 00:05:19,319 to make a significant change in existing law. 94 00:05:19,319 --> 00:05:21,821 He says, "There is too little evidence..." 95 00:05:21,821 --> 00:05:23,323 - Turn it off. -"...that these groups 96 00:05:23,323 --> 00:05:24,824 face discrimination." 97 00:05:24,824 --> 00:05:27,076 Shame! Shame! 98 00:05:30,705 --> 00:05:32,498 Replenished your supplies. 99 00:05:32,498 --> 00:05:33,708 How're you feeling? 100 00:05:41,841 --> 00:05:43,843 I'm seeing my friend this afternoon. 101 00:05:43,843 --> 00:05:46,387 The fundraiser, who knows the governor's chief of staff. 102 00:05:47,805 --> 00:05:49,349 That meeting that you wanted, 103 00:05:49,349 --> 00:05:51,184 that we had the big fight over. 104 00:05:53,269 --> 00:05:54,312 Tim. 105 00:05:55,897 --> 00:05:58,691 I woke up last night, and I didn't know where I was. 106 00:06:00,318 --> 00:06:04,405 I knew I was in a hospital, but I couldn't remember. 107 00:06:09,160 --> 00:06:10,870 I didn't know who I was. 108 00:06:14,248 --> 00:06:16,167 Timothy David Laughlin. 109 00:06:17,960 --> 00:06:20,338 That adorable Catholic boy from Staten Island. 110 00:06:24,759 --> 00:06:27,095 It's not true what they say about vodka. 111 00:06:28,763 --> 00:06:30,390 I can smell it on you. 112 00:06:30,890 --> 00:06:32,392 Really, Hawk? 113 00:06:33,226 --> 00:06:34,894 10:00 in the morning. 114 00:06:36,938 --> 00:06:38,773 I'll let you know how it goes with my friend. 115 00:06:39,774 --> 00:06:41,567 You're welcome, by the way. 116 00:06:47,573 --> 00:06:48,574 What's this? 117 00:06:48,574 --> 00:06:50,785 A do-not-resuscitate order. 118 00:06:52,620 --> 00:06:53,704 There's a chance I could come out 119 00:06:53,704 --> 00:06:55,248 of the next seizure on life support. 120 00:06:56,749 --> 00:06:59,836 The social worker thinks I might want to consider. 121 00:06:59,836 --> 00:07:01,087 What? 122 00:07:06,717 --> 00:07:08,261 I'll be back. 123 00:07:08,261 --> 00:07:09,387 What can I get you? 124 00:07:09,387 --> 00:07:11,222 Something for your throat, a Popsicle? 125 00:07:11,222 --> 00:07:12,265 Sure. 126 00:07:13,433 --> 00:07:14,434 Grape. 127 00:07:15,560 --> 00:07:16,602 I had you pegged for cherry. 128 00:07:22,316 --> 00:07:23,776 Lucy's in town. 129 00:07:25,570 --> 00:07:27,155 She asked if she could see you. 130 00:07:29,782 --> 00:07:30,950 Excuse me. 131 00:07:30,950 --> 00:07:33,453 Tim, I need to change your IV. 132 00:07:37,415 --> 00:07:39,167 ♪ pensive music ♪ 133 00:07:51,679 --> 00:07:52,972 Too early for me. 134 00:07:57,977 --> 00:07:59,645 Know where my wife is right now? 135 00:08:01,189 --> 00:08:02,815 I give up. 136 00:08:02,815 --> 00:08:04,775 The Fairmont Hotel. 137 00:08:05,985 --> 00:08:07,820 The one in San Francisco. 138 00:08:11,032 --> 00:08:12,825 I'm glad you think it's funny. 139 00:08:17,330 --> 00:08:19,123 You can't smoke in here, sir. 140 00:08:19,123 --> 00:08:21,083 Christ. 141 00:08:21,083 --> 00:08:23,002 - Thank you. - You're welcome. 142 00:08:26,172 --> 00:08:28,424 I think Jerome has the virus. 143 00:08:28,424 --> 00:08:29,675 - What? - He hasn't told me, 144 00:08:29,675 --> 00:08:32,345 but he's been cold to me lately. 145 00:08:32,345 --> 00:08:34,514 I see him whispering with Frankie. 146 00:08:37,558 --> 00:08:39,060 Why won't he tell me? 147 00:08:41,479 --> 00:08:42,813 Boys. 148 00:08:42,813 --> 00:08:44,440 What about 'em? 149 00:08:44,440 --> 00:08:46,984 Well, they never want to talk about what's eating at them. 150 00:08:46,984 --> 00:08:48,945 It's up to you to make the first move. 151 00:08:50,905 --> 00:08:52,114 Before it's too late. 152 00:08:56,953 --> 00:08:58,704 It's not fair. 153 00:08:59,872 --> 00:09:01,040 The kid was just 154 00:09:01,040 --> 00:09:03,209 figuring himself out when it was spreading. 155 00:09:03,209 --> 00:09:06,712 And here I was, finally settled and faithful to Frankie. 156 00:09:09,298 --> 00:09:10,341 And you? 157 00:09:11,217 --> 00:09:12,260 What? 158 00:09:12,802 --> 00:09:14,178 Your test? 159 00:09:17,890 --> 00:09:19,517 Negative. 160 00:09:22,979 --> 00:09:24,230 Son of a bitch. 161 00:09:26,691 --> 00:09:28,693 Still bulletproof. 162 00:09:28,693 --> 00:09:30,027 Yeah. 163 00:09:33,322 --> 00:09:34,782 And the kick is wide, 164 00:09:34,782 --> 00:09:36,617 keeping Army in the lead. 165 00:09:38,786 --> 00:09:40,705 We'll pause now to remind our listeners 166 00:09:40,705 --> 00:09:42,999 that the Red Cross is working tirelessly 167 00:09:42,999 --> 00:09:45,585 on behalf of thousands of Hungarian refugees 168 00:09:45,585 --> 00:09:47,253 fleeing the brutal Soviet invasion. 169 00:09:48,129 --> 00:09:50,172 - Who's winning? - Army. 170 00:09:50,172 --> 00:09:51,924 ...humanitarian effort by donating-- 171 00:09:51,924 --> 00:09:53,884 You're having a big day. 172 00:09:53,884 --> 00:09:55,595 Getting settled in your new study? 173 00:09:55,595 --> 00:09:58,931 Mm. This'll always be your father's study. 174 00:09:58,931 --> 00:10:00,433 - What's this? - A telegram. 175 00:10:00,433 --> 00:10:01,767 It just came for you. 176 00:10:14,614 --> 00:10:16,616 Anything to worry about? 177 00:10:16,616 --> 00:10:21,162 No. It's just the boss dogging me on my day off. 178 00:10:21,162 --> 00:10:23,873 Sweetheart, would you fetch your hardworking husband a beer? 179 00:10:24,540 --> 00:10:25,916 Happy to. 180 00:10:25,916 --> 00:10:27,043 Thanks. 181 00:10:31,631 --> 00:10:34,091 ♪ suspenseful music ♪ 182 00:11:07,041 --> 00:11:08,417 Mr. Fuller. 183 00:11:10,628 --> 00:11:12,004 Corporal Laughlin. 184 00:11:13,214 --> 00:11:14,590 You broke your promise. 185 00:11:15,841 --> 00:11:18,427 "Promise you won't write." You wrote. 186 00:11:18,427 --> 00:11:22,098 You sent a telegram. Very succinct. 187 00:11:22,098 --> 00:11:25,643 "Hawk. The Hungarian refugees. Do something." 188 00:11:25,643 --> 00:11:27,061 If the Soviets hadn't invaded Hungary, 189 00:11:27,061 --> 00:11:28,229 I might never have heard from you. 190 00:11:28,229 --> 00:11:30,731 I was stuck behind a desk at Fort Polk. 191 00:11:30,731 --> 00:11:32,525 I couldn't do anything, but I knew someone 192 00:11:32,525 --> 00:11:35,194 at the State Department who could. 193 00:11:35,194 --> 00:11:36,821 Still fighting the anti-communism cause. 194 00:11:37,113 --> 00:11:38,698 Yes. 195 00:11:38,698 --> 00:11:40,533 But I didn't expect a job offer. 196 00:11:40,533 --> 00:11:41,826 Well, you don't have the job yet. 197 00:11:42,576 --> 00:11:43,577 Come on. 198 00:11:46,080 --> 00:11:47,665 - Good afternoon. - Hello. 199 00:11:49,250 --> 00:11:50,668 When Congress passed the Relief Act, 200 00:11:50,668 --> 00:11:52,002 we set up this office to process 201 00:11:52,002 --> 00:11:54,547 as many Hungarian refugees as we can. 202 00:11:54,547 --> 00:11:56,340 How many positions are you looking to fill? 203 00:11:56,340 --> 00:11:57,800 Right now? Just five. 204 00:11:57,800 --> 00:12:01,554 Your application may take some time to process. 205 00:12:01,554 --> 00:12:03,055 But a veteran with your experience 206 00:12:03,055 --> 00:12:04,640 shouldn't have any trouble getting a security clearance. 207 00:12:04,640 --> 00:12:07,393 And you have a better-than-average chance 208 00:12:07,393 --> 00:12:09,145 of being selected, considering you've been 209 00:12:09,145 --> 00:12:11,647 recommended by Mr. Fuller. 210 00:12:11,647 --> 00:12:13,941 He tells me you used to work for Senator McCarthy. 211 00:12:14,942 --> 00:12:16,235 That's right. Yeah. 212 00:12:16,235 --> 00:12:18,946 Those cowards who censured him in '54 were wrong. 213 00:12:19,572 --> 00:12:21,574 History will show. 214 00:12:21,574 --> 00:12:22,908 He's a great American. 215 00:12:33,753 --> 00:12:36,046 Looks like that went well. 216 00:12:36,046 --> 00:12:38,716 Hawk, getting security clearance, 217 00:12:38,716 --> 00:12:40,050 that's McLeod's department. 218 00:12:40,593 --> 00:12:41,761 The M Unit. 219 00:12:41,761 --> 00:12:43,929 Yeah, you don't have to worry about McLeod. 220 00:12:43,929 --> 00:12:46,640 He's going to be the ambassador to Ireland. 221 00:12:46,640 --> 00:12:49,560 Exposing perverts pays off. 222 00:12:49,560 --> 00:12:50,895 The M Unit's still in business, 223 00:12:50,895 --> 00:12:52,271 but they're running out of steam. 224 00:12:52,646 --> 00:12:53,689 Hey. 225 00:12:55,941 --> 00:12:57,109 You excited about the job? 226 00:12:57,109 --> 00:12:58,736 I am. 227 00:12:58,736 --> 00:13:00,279 I don't know how to thank you. 228 00:13:02,573 --> 00:13:03,824 I could think of a few ways. 229 00:13:03,824 --> 00:13:05,618 That's not what I meant. 230 00:13:05,618 --> 00:13:07,119 The last time you and I... 231 00:13:09,997 --> 00:13:12,583 I had to join the Army to get away from you. 232 00:13:12,583 --> 00:13:13,793 What's next? 233 00:13:14,627 --> 00:13:16,253 The Foreign Legion? 234 00:13:18,756 --> 00:13:20,299 Thanks for your help. 235 00:13:22,343 --> 00:13:23,469 See you. 236 00:13:27,973 --> 00:13:29,725 I'll let you know when I hear from Osborne. 237 00:13:30,351 --> 00:13:31,352 Thanks. 238 00:13:32,436 --> 00:13:33,979 ♪ mellow music ♪ 239 00:13:40,236 --> 00:13:41,362 Just right over there. 240 00:13:41,362 --> 00:13:42,738 - Sure. - Thank you. 241 00:13:44,698 --> 00:13:46,784 - Here you go, sweetheart. - Thank you. 242 00:13:46,784 --> 00:13:48,577 - All right. Right there. - Perfect. 243 00:13:49,537 --> 00:13:51,455 - Mm. - What? 244 00:13:51,455 --> 00:13:52,832 He's kicking. 245 00:13:52,832 --> 00:13:54,542 - Can I-- - Don't be afraid to touch. 246 00:13:57,002 --> 00:13:58,337 Wow. 247 00:14:00,464 --> 00:14:01,507 He? 248 00:14:02,633 --> 00:14:03,801 You're sure it's a boy in there? 249 00:14:04,552 --> 00:14:06,303 I have a hunch. 250 00:14:06,303 --> 00:14:08,222 Doesn't every man want a boy? 251 00:14:10,182 --> 00:14:12,059 I just want you and the baby to be healthy. 252 00:14:12,810 --> 00:14:14,353 Ma'am? 253 00:14:14,353 --> 00:14:15,396 Right here. 254 00:14:18,732 --> 00:14:21,026 - Oof. - He's going to town there. 255 00:14:22,486 --> 00:14:23,779 Excuse me. 256 00:14:23,779 --> 00:14:25,281 Where would you like this? 257 00:14:25,281 --> 00:14:26,907 Right there is perfect. 258 00:14:35,374 --> 00:14:36,959 We'll get the rest. 259 00:14:36,959 --> 00:14:38,127 Thank you. 260 00:14:45,467 --> 00:14:48,220 I'm writing speeches for Representative Sullivan. 261 00:14:48,220 --> 00:14:49,930 - Missouri's own. - Mm-hmm. 262 00:14:49,930 --> 00:14:52,683 - She must be a hero of yours. - She is. 263 00:14:52,683 --> 00:14:54,476 And I intend to run for her seat someday. 264 00:14:55,311 --> 00:14:57,730 Best part, 265 00:14:57,730 --> 00:15:00,065 I am no longer on the federal government's payroll, 266 00:15:00,065 --> 00:15:04,403 so no risk of the FBI raiding my underwear drawer. 267 00:15:06,447 --> 00:15:09,408 And you? Have you found something? 268 00:15:09,408 --> 00:15:12,119 I've applied for a position in the Refugee Relief Office. 269 00:15:12,119 --> 00:15:13,203 At State? 270 00:15:13,913 --> 00:15:14,914 And, yes. 271 00:15:16,040 --> 00:15:17,666 Yes, he recommended me. 272 00:15:17,666 --> 00:15:19,919 - Don't worry, he's changed. - Do people change? 273 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:23,130 I have. I've stopped worshipping false idols. 274 00:15:24,465 --> 00:15:26,425 McCarthy, Bishop Sheen. 275 00:15:27,426 --> 00:15:28,928 Even you-know-who. 276 00:15:30,721 --> 00:15:31,764 Aren't you proud of me? 277 00:15:36,977 --> 00:15:40,189 I got a letter last week from Caroline. 278 00:15:41,148 --> 00:15:42,691 She's married. 279 00:15:42,691 --> 00:15:44,443 Living in Ohio with her husband. 280 00:15:46,904 --> 00:15:47,947 That's her baby. 281 00:15:57,289 --> 00:15:59,208 I wonder sometimes, when it all happened, 282 00:15:59,208 --> 00:16:02,378 if I had offered to leave D.C. with her 283 00:16:02,378 --> 00:16:04,630 and find some cottage somewhere. 284 00:16:04,630 --> 00:16:06,632 We could have been those two eccentric old ladies 285 00:16:06,632 --> 00:16:09,093 that all the busybodies in town whisper about. 286 00:16:09,093 --> 00:16:11,011 The one with all the cats and no husbands. 287 00:16:17,768 --> 00:16:19,895 Have you read The Catcher in the Rye? 288 00:16:19,895 --> 00:16:22,439 - Mm-mm. - There's a line in it. 289 00:16:22,439 --> 00:16:26,026 Something like, "If a kid wants to grab for the gold ring, 290 00:16:26,860 --> 00:16:28,070 you have to let him do it. 291 00:16:28,070 --> 00:16:31,490 If they fall, they fall." 292 00:16:33,993 --> 00:16:35,244 What's the gold ring? 293 00:16:35,244 --> 00:16:37,079 I don't know if Salinger would agree, 294 00:16:38,372 --> 00:16:39,665 but I think it's love. 295 00:16:49,717 --> 00:16:52,344 I'm here to see a patient, Timothy Laughlin. 296 00:16:52,344 --> 00:16:54,513 Room 511, straight ahead. 297 00:17:08,318 --> 00:17:10,904 I don't need to wear gloves, do I? 298 00:17:10,904 --> 00:17:12,698 No, you're perfectly safe. 299 00:17:13,532 --> 00:17:14,533 Thank you. 300 00:17:34,053 --> 00:17:35,054 May I? 301 00:17:46,273 --> 00:17:47,274 How are you? 302 00:17:49,610 --> 00:17:51,820 I have KS, recurring seizures, 303 00:17:51,820 --> 00:17:54,114 and my hair is falling out. What else? Um... 304 00:17:55,365 --> 00:17:57,534 Uh, my social worker suggested I sign 305 00:17:57,534 --> 00:17:59,578 a do-not-resuscitate order. How are you? 306 00:18:03,165 --> 00:18:06,043 The government ought to do more about this. 307 00:18:06,043 --> 00:18:07,920 It's terrible. 308 00:18:07,920 --> 00:18:09,546 They could do more. 309 00:18:09,546 --> 00:18:13,300 But people like you would have to pay higher taxes. 310 00:18:13,300 --> 00:18:15,886 My father used to argue for a national healthcare system. 311 00:18:15,886 --> 00:18:18,263 He believed government should take care of its citizens. 312 00:18:19,056 --> 00:18:20,099 So do I. 313 00:18:21,683 --> 00:18:24,269 It's not always wise to judge someone on appearances. 314 00:18:26,146 --> 00:18:27,272 You're right. 315 00:18:30,442 --> 00:18:33,112 This hospital is not what I expected it to be. 316 00:18:33,112 --> 00:18:35,405 It's the only one like it in the country, 317 00:18:35,405 --> 00:18:38,117 where people with AIDS are treated like human beings. 318 00:18:41,245 --> 00:18:43,622 I'm sorry, Mrs. Fuller, but why are you here? 319 00:18:46,333 --> 00:18:47,793 I don't know. 320 00:18:51,755 --> 00:18:55,634 You mean something to my husband. 321 00:18:55,634 --> 00:18:58,470 I suppose I had to see you so I would know. 322 00:19:00,430 --> 00:19:01,723 Know? 323 00:19:03,767 --> 00:19:06,311 How much you mean to him. 324 00:19:06,311 --> 00:19:07,771 Shouldn't you ask him? 325 00:19:11,108 --> 00:19:12,276 Right. 326 00:19:13,152 --> 00:19:15,154 That wouldn't get you anywhere. 327 00:19:15,863 --> 00:19:16,864 No. 328 00:19:24,079 --> 00:19:26,498 My time with Hawk was rushed, with years in between. 329 00:19:26,498 --> 00:19:28,542 You had him most of his life. 330 00:19:28,542 --> 00:19:30,752 But you were always there. 331 00:19:30,752 --> 00:19:32,254 I could never get away from you. 332 00:19:32,254 --> 00:19:34,548 - It's not a contest. - Of course it is. 333 00:19:34,548 --> 00:19:35,757 It always has been. 334 00:19:35,757 --> 00:19:36,842 Then why didn't you leave him? 335 00:19:36,842 --> 00:19:38,510 Because we had a good life. 336 00:19:39,178 --> 00:19:40,596 And children. 337 00:19:40,596 --> 00:19:42,306 And then when Jackson... 338 00:19:43,515 --> 00:19:45,517 You don't want to hear this. 339 00:19:46,393 --> 00:19:47,436 Please. 340 00:19:54,651 --> 00:19:59,198 When Jackson died, it was so unbearable. 341 00:20:00,532 --> 00:20:02,534 The only comfort I had 342 00:20:02,534 --> 00:20:05,037 was knowing that Hawk understood that suffering, 343 00:20:05,037 --> 00:20:06,872 felt the same way. 344 00:20:10,417 --> 00:20:12,878 If I had had to bear that alone, 345 00:20:14,838 --> 00:20:17,049 I wouldn't have lived through it. 346 00:20:21,094 --> 00:20:22,721 I should be going. 347 00:20:25,265 --> 00:20:28,477 Mrs. Fuller, thank you 348 00:20:29,895 --> 00:20:31,230 for coming to see me. 349 00:20:32,231 --> 00:20:35,567 ♪ pensive music ♪ 350 00:21:05,222 --> 00:21:07,057 It's a favor for a friend. 351 00:21:07,057 --> 00:21:08,892 He'll settle for anyone on the governor's staff, 352 00:21:08,892 --> 00:21:11,270 but he's really hoping to meet with Lonigan. 353 00:21:11,270 --> 00:21:12,729 - Howard? - Yeah. 354 00:21:12,729 --> 00:21:14,398 Your friend's aiming high. 355 00:21:14,398 --> 00:21:16,608 You raise a lot of money for the governor. 356 00:21:16,608 --> 00:21:18,735 How do you know this friend? 357 00:21:18,735 --> 00:21:20,445 He's actually Lucy's friend. 358 00:21:21,738 --> 00:21:23,031 He just... He wants to have 359 00:21:23,031 --> 00:21:25,117 a civil conversation about this disease. 360 00:21:25,117 --> 00:21:27,327 It's killing an awful lot of people. 361 00:21:27,327 --> 00:21:30,080 Yeah, but it's killing the wrong people, 362 00:21:30,080 --> 00:21:32,457 or the right people, 363 00:21:32,457 --> 00:21:34,167 depending on how you look at it. 364 00:21:35,627 --> 00:21:38,005 How do you look at it? 365 00:21:38,005 --> 00:21:41,425 Helping kids with cancer gives you votes and donations. 366 00:21:41,425 --> 00:21:43,885 Fags with AIDS, who gives a shit? 367 00:21:44,970 --> 00:21:46,847 Besides, they made a choice. 368 00:21:48,181 --> 00:21:50,434 Nobody chooses to get a terminal disease 369 00:21:50,434 --> 00:21:52,853 because they wanted to fuck somebody. 370 00:21:52,853 --> 00:21:54,980 God knows, you put your dick in plenty of holes 371 00:21:54,980 --> 00:21:56,356 back in the day. 372 00:21:56,356 --> 00:21:57,941 Are you taking this personally? 373 00:22:00,068 --> 00:22:02,029 No. [chuckles] Sorry. 374 00:22:03,613 --> 00:22:05,741 Ah. Lucy is. It's just, uh, 375 00:22:07,159 --> 00:22:09,619 I'm trying to keep the peace at home, you know. 376 00:22:09,619 --> 00:22:11,330 Happy wife, happy life. 377 00:22:14,041 --> 00:22:16,418 It's a big ask, Hawk. 378 00:22:16,418 --> 00:22:18,170 Nobody wants to talk about freaking AIDS. 379 00:22:20,547 --> 00:22:22,466 Mm-hmm. 380 00:22:22,466 --> 00:22:23,842 - Two of them. - Just the bill, baby? 381 00:22:25,302 --> 00:22:26,428 Mm-hmm. 382 00:22:28,722 --> 00:22:29,723 Oof. 383 00:22:32,059 --> 00:22:33,393 She's young. 384 00:22:33,393 --> 00:22:36,396 What can I say? I like it tight. 385 00:22:39,441 --> 00:22:41,068 Yep. That reminds me 386 00:22:41,068 --> 00:22:43,695 of that congressman's aide at the Republican Convention. 387 00:22:43,695 --> 00:22:45,405 What was that, 1980? 388 00:22:45,864 --> 00:22:46,907 Oh. 389 00:22:46,907 --> 00:22:48,575 Didn't security take her out of your room 390 00:22:48,575 --> 00:22:49,701 in the middle of the night 391 00:22:49,701 --> 00:22:51,328 because the two of you were shit faced 392 00:22:51,328 --> 00:22:54,414 - and making so much noise? - Yeah. 393 00:22:54,414 --> 00:22:56,249 Christ. 394 00:22:59,169 --> 00:23:00,921 Did Linda ever find out about that? 395 00:23:09,179 --> 00:23:10,555 That's low, Hawk. 396 00:23:11,556 --> 00:23:12,891 Even for you. 397 00:23:21,775 --> 00:23:23,485 I'll see what I can do to help Lucy's friend, 398 00:23:23,485 --> 00:23:24,778 but don't get your hopes up. 399 00:23:32,077 --> 00:23:33,912 Thousands appeared to pay their respects 400 00:23:33,912 --> 00:23:36,748 to Senator Joseph McCarthy, who died of hepatitis 401 00:23:36,748 --> 00:23:39,584 at Bethesda Naval Hospital on Thursday. 402 00:23:39,584 --> 00:23:42,462 Some 70 senators, Vice President Nixon 403 00:23:42,462 --> 00:23:45,382 and FBI Director Hoover were in attendance. 404 00:23:45,382 --> 00:23:47,384 Tomorrow, McCarthy's body will be moved 405 00:23:47,384 --> 00:23:50,720 to St. Matthew's Cathedral for a Requiem Mass. 406 00:23:52,472 --> 00:23:53,557 Sorry. 407 00:24:03,275 --> 00:24:05,318 Present arms! 408 00:24:12,117 --> 00:24:13,660 Rest in peace. 409 00:24:24,337 --> 00:24:26,339 You served our country well, sir. 410 00:24:34,931 --> 00:24:36,391 Rest in peace, Senator. 411 00:24:41,480 --> 00:24:43,231 God bless you, sir. 412 00:24:50,655 --> 00:24:53,158 You're Mr. Fuller's friend. 413 00:24:53,158 --> 00:24:54,409 That's right. Do I know you? 414 00:24:56,328 --> 00:24:58,163 Cocksucker! 415 00:24:59,164 --> 00:25:00,665 You don't belong here. 416 00:25:01,291 --> 00:25:02,542 Get out of here! 417 00:25:05,003 --> 00:25:06,296 Hey, hey, careful. 418 00:25:07,506 --> 00:25:09,591 Hey. I had a hunch you'd be here. 419 00:25:09,591 --> 00:25:10,800 Come on. 420 00:25:18,975 --> 00:25:20,685 Lucy made me give up my apartment, 421 00:25:20,685 --> 00:25:22,854 so I use this place. 422 00:25:22,854 --> 00:25:26,107 We inherited it after one of Lucy's great uncles passed. 423 00:25:26,900 --> 00:25:28,527 We plan to sell in the fall, 424 00:25:28,527 --> 00:25:30,028 after we've settled with the baby. 425 00:25:37,869 --> 00:25:39,496 What do you do here, exactly? 426 00:25:39,496 --> 00:25:42,999 Read, listen to music. 427 00:25:42,999 --> 00:25:45,293 What a man does when he gets the chance to be alone. 428 00:25:49,381 --> 00:25:50,882 Alone? 429 00:25:50,882 --> 00:25:53,134 I'm the epitome of marital fidelity. 430 00:25:54,469 --> 00:25:55,804 Can I get you a beer? 431 00:25:57,222 --> 00:25:58,181 Sure. 432 00:26:03,436 --> 00:26:06,231 There's milk, if you change your mind. 433 00:26:16,741 --> 00:26:18,076 Charles Mingus. 434 00:26:20,996 --> 00:26:23,248 Yeah, Lucy hates jazz. 435 00:26:23,248 --> 00:26:26,918 It's Brahms or Cole Porter at our house. 436 00:26:26,918 --> 00:26:28,545 Although I suspect, when I'm not home, 437 00:26:28,545 --> 00:26:30,255 she puts on that Elvis character. 438 00:26:31,423 --> 00:26:32,424 Cheers. 439 00:26:34,259 --> 00:26:35,260 You're happy. 440 00:26:36,469 --> 00:26:38,096 Happy within reason. 441 00:26:48,064 --> 00:26:50,525 So, tell me what's bothering you. 442 00:26:50,525 --> 00:26:53,903 You can't be grieving for Tail Gunner Joe. 443 00:26:53,903 --> 00:26:56,364 At the end, I saw McCarthy for what he was. 444 00:26:58,742 --> 00:27:01,119 A rabble rouser, demagogue. 445 00:27:04,706 --> 00:27:06,791 So why do I feel like I've lost someone? 446 00:27:09,210 --> 00:27:10,629 Because you knew him. 447 00:27:11,588 --> 00:27:13,298 And you're a decent person. 448 00:27:13,298 --> 00:27:16,676 He believed in something. He had ideals. 449 00:27:16,676 --> 00:27:19,763 And even if they were misguided, he held them with passion. 450 00:27:21,723 --> 00:27:23,350 I used to have passion like that. 451 00:27:29,814 --> 00:27:31,274 Does the bathroom work? 452 00:27:32,275 --> 00:27:35,028 Yeah, it's... down there. 453 00:28:10,605 --> 00:28:13,525 The epitome of marital fidelity. 454 00:28:15,443 --> 00:28:16,569 I try. 455 00:28:22,200 --> 00:28:23,535 You bring men here? 456 00:28:24,202 --> 00:28:25,662 You'd be the first. 457 00:28:27,288 --> 00:28:28,748 Don't believe you. 458 00:28:34,212 --> 00:28:36,047 Shut up and drink your milk. 459 00:29:01,322 --> 00:29:03,575 ♪ mellow music ♪ 460 00:29:14,627 --> 00:29:16,671 The Army made a man out of my Skippy. 461 00:29:16,671 --> 00:29:18,631 - Yeah, it did. - Yeah. 462 00:29:27,223 --> 00:29:28,767 He's all grown up now. 463 00:29:31,060 --> 00:29:32,103 I am. 464 00:29:38,318 --> 00:29:39,819 I want you to fuck me. 465 00:29:44,282 --> 00:29:47,160 ♪ up-tempo music ♪ 466 00:30:08,014 --> 00:30:10,809 Oh, shit! 467 00:30:10,809 --> 00:30:12,811 Oh, God! 468 00:30:37,252 --> 00:30:39,629 I'll check with Osborne about your application. 469 00:30:39,629 --> 00:30:41,297 Is that a bribe? 470 00:30:41,297 --> 00:30:42,340 To get me to come back? 471 00:30:44,092 --> 00:30:46,010 Do I have to bribe you to come back? 472 00:30:46,010 --> 00:30:47,178 No. 473 00:30:49,180 --> 00:30:51,599 I knew this was going to happen the minute I opened your letter. 474 00:30:57,856 --> 00:30:59,691 Leave a message for me at the Y. 475 00:31:02,318 --> 00:31:03,862 I'll meet you here whenever you want. 476 00:31:04,571 --> 00:31:06,155 Better. 477 00:31:06,155 --> 00:31:08,074 I'll leave the key on the frame above the door. 478 00:31:09,033 --> 00:31:10,618 Come when you like. 479 00:31:14,330 --> 00:31:15,915 I promise I won't be any trouble. 480 00:31:18,418 --> 00:31:20,128 I don't have any expectations. 481 00:31:28,595 --> 00:31:29,929 I have plenty. 482 00:31:39,147 --> 00:31:40,398 I can't find it, Hawk. 483 00:31:40,398 --> 00:31:41,774 I think it's at the cleaner's. 484 00:31:41,774 --> 00:31:44,110 It's okay, Luce. I'll wear the light blue. 485 00:31:45,153 --> 00:31:46,529 Wait. Here it is. 486 00:31:48,823 --> 00:31:51,034 I might have to give it a quick press. 487 00:31:53,328 --> 00:31:54,370 What? 488 00:31:56,998 --> 00:31:58,416 I'm going to give it a quick press. 489 00:32:00,793 --> 00:32:02,003 Thanks, sweetheart. 490 00:32:11,387 --> 00:32:12,972 Oh, fuck. 491 00:32:34,285 --> 00:32:35,995 - May I come in? - Of course. 492 00:32:38,247 --> 00:32:40,375 - Hi. - Hi. 493 00:32:47,674 --> 00:32:48,967 Would you like a soda? 494 00:32:49,801 --> 00:32:50,802 Thanks. 495 00:33:15,284 --> 00:33:17,412 So you... 496 00:33:18,037 --> 00:33:19,038 You talked to Tim. 497 00:33:19,539 --> 00:33:20,540 I did. 498 00:33:25,044 --> 00:33:27,171 I'm sorry that I've been away for so long. 499 00:33:27,171 --> 00:33:28,506 I shouldn't have left you hanging. 500 00:33:28,506 --> 00:33:30,675 I know that the move's been stressful. 501 00:33:32,719 --> 00:33:34,470 If we have to, 502 00:33:34,470 --> 00:33:37,098 we'll push things back a week or two. 503 00:33:37,098 --> 00:33:40,351 I'll let the office know. I'll make some excuse. 504 00:33:40,351 --> 00:33:41,936 I'm not moving to Italy. 505 00:33:45,231 --> 00:33:46,566 What are you talking about? 506 00:33:47,191 --> 00:33:48,192 I'm not moving. 507 00:33:50,445 --> 00:33:51,529 The kids are in D.C. 508 00:33:51,529 --> 00:33:54,157 My life is there. 509 00:33:55,742 --> 00:33:56,993 I have to go to Italy. 510 00:33:56,993 --> 00:33:58,953 - It's my job. - I know. 511 00:33:58,953 --> 00:34:00,705 But I'm not going with you. 512 00:34:01,372 --> 00:34:02,373 I can't. 513 00:34:05,543 --> 00:34:08,838 Okay. Then I won't go. 514 00:34:10,006 --> 00:34:11,049 You don't understand. 515 00:34:11,049 --> 00:34:12,341 - I'll put in for retirement. - Hawk-- 516 00:34:12,341 --> 00:34:13,843 - And you and I can make-- - Hawk. 517 00:34:13,843 --> 00:34:16,971 When you first came out here, I didn't mind. 518 00:34:16,971 --> 00:34:18,514 Tim means something to you. 519 00:34:18,514 --> 00:34:20,391 You deserve a chance to say goodbye. 520 00:34:22,602 --> 00:34:24,062 And I thought... 521 00:34:25,104 --> 00:34:26,397 God forgive me. 522 00:34:29,400 --> 00:34:32,570 When he dies, it will be over. 523 00:34:33,613 --> 00:34:35,698 The two of you. 524 00:34:35,698 --> 00:34:37,658 And you and I can have our life together 525 00:34:37,658 --> 00:34:39,243 in a way we never had it. 526 00:34:40,244 --> 00:34:41,579 Free of him. 527 00:34:44,082 --> 00:34:45,666 But now I know 528 00:34:46,834 --> 00:34:48,628 it will never be over. 529 00:34:50,630 --> 00:34:52,882 I'll fly home tomorrow, if that's what you want. 530 00:34:52,882 --> 00:34:54,634 - That's not-- - Today. Whatever you need. 531 00:34:54,634 --> 00:34:55,927 No, Hawk. Stop. 532 00:34:55,927 --> 00:34:57,595 You have unfinished business here. 533 00:34:57,595 --> 00:34:59,847 You need to see it through. 534 00:34:59,847 --> 00:35:01,599 Come home when you're ready, but when you do, 535 00:35:01,599 --> 00:35:02,892 I don't think I'll be there. 536 00:35:05,186 --> 00:35:06,479 I have to leave for the airport. 537 00:35:06,479 --> 00:35:07,772 I moved up my flight. 538 00:35:07,772 --> 00:35:09,440 I will stay with Kimberly and Mark for a while. 539 00:35:09,440 --> 00:35:10,566 You're not going to throw away 540 00:35:10,566 --> 00:35:12,235 thirty years of marriage just like that. 541 00:35:12,235 --> 00:35:13,736 We have a family. 542 00:35:13,736 --> 00:35:15,822 - Grandbabies. - What about desire? 543 00:35:15,822 --> 00:35:17,448 Like the kind you had for Tim. 544 00:35:18,658 --> 00:35:20,618 - Lucy-- - I have lived my whole life 545 00:35:20,618 --> 00:35:22,245 not knowing what it's like to be desired. 546 00:35:22,245 --> 00:35:24,956 Do you have any idea how lonely that's been? 547 00:35:24,956 --> 00:35:27,166 ♪ melancholy music ♪ 548 00:35:31,087 --> 00:35:33,047 Look, we are going to work this out. 549 00:35:34,340 --> 00:35:35,800 We always do. 550 00:35:39,345 --> 00:35:40,972 Goodbye, Hawk. 551 00:35:43,766 --> 00:35:45,017 Luce. 552 00:35:45,518 --> 00:35:46,519 Luce. 553 00:36:06,622 --> 00:36:07,999 That's game. 554 00:36:10,126 --> 00:36:11,878 Run it back. Your ball. 555 00:36:12,670 --> 00:36:13,796 Jerome. 556 00:36:13,796 --> 00:36:15,047 Take it out! 557 00:36:16,382 --> 00:36:17,383 What's going on with you? 558 00:36:19,260 --> 00:36:20,720 You've been avoiding me. 559 00:36:20,720 --> 00:36:22,555 I can't get more than two words out of you. 560 00:36:22,555 --> 00:36:24,390 - Just fucking play. - No. 561 00:36:28,144 --> 00:36:30,104 What's going on with you? Tell me what's wrong. 562 00:36:30,104 --> 00:36:31,522 - Nothing. - Tell me what's wrong. 563 00:36:31,522 --> 00:36:32,648 - Nothing. - Cut the bullshit. 564 00:36:32,648 --> 00:36:34,567 I'm fucking positive! 565 00:36:38,487 --> 00:36:39,947 You happy now? 566 00:36:43,826 --> 00:36:48,039 Don't. Just... don't. 567 00:36:53,419 --> 00:36:55,379 - I'm sorry. - It's not... 568 00:36:55,379 --> 00:36:57,632 - It's not about you. - It is about me. 569 00:36:59,008 --> 00:37:01,093 It's about you, it's about me. 570 00:37:02,553 --> 00:37:04,096 Don't you understand that by now? 571 00:37:06,599 --> 00:37:08,517 I was so fucking stupid. 572 00:37:08,517 --> 00:37:10,478 It's my fault. 573 00:37:10,478 --> 00:37:12,188 I... I shouldn't have fucked around. 574 00:37:12,188 --> 00:37:13,606 I should have been more careful. 575 00:37:13,606 --> 00:37:14,815 - Stupid. - No, no, no. 576 00:37:14,815 --> 00:37:15,900 - It's too fucking-- - You're young. 577 00:37:15,900 --> 00:37:17,235 You have the right to explore. 578 00:37:19,320 --> 00:37:20,988 You're Black in a country 579 00:37:20,988 --> 00:37:24,325 that will try to convince you you ain't shit. 580 00:37:24,325 --> 00:37:28,120 You're gay, and your own people may never accept you. 581 00:37:31,582 --> 00:37:34,126 But listen to me, and hear this. 582 00:37:38,631 --> 00:37:40,007 You're innocent. 583 00:37:44,887 --> 00:37:47,682 You are... 584 00:37:48,975 --> 00:37:50,101 innocent. 585 00:37:55,815 --> 00:37:57,275 Mm-hmm. 586 00:37:57,733 --> 00:37:58,943 Mm-hmm. 587 00:38:01,862 --> 00:38:02,905 Say it. 588 00:38:05,491 --> 00:38:07,159 Go on, say it. 589 00:38:07,159 --> 00:38:08,828 - I'm innocent. - You're innocent. 590 00:38:12,373 --> 00:38:14,083 - I'm innocent. - You're innocent. 591 00:38:17,211 --> 00:38:18,796 You're innocent. 592 00:38:20,840 --> 00:38:22,591 I'm innocent. 593 00:38:26,429 --> 00:38:27,972 - I'm innocent. - You're innocent. 594 00:38:27,972 --> 00:38:29,765 Innocent. You're innocent. 595 00:38:37,773 --> 00:38:39,317 You're innocent. 596 00:38:42,111 --> 00:38:43,946 Paul's the social one, believe it or not. 597 00:38:43,946 --> 00:38:45,740 - Mm. - Well, he loves to dance. 598 00:38:45,740 --> 00:38:47,408 Oh, we used to dance all the time. 599 00:38:48,367 --> 00:38:50,244 Paul's a terrific dancer. 600 00:39:00,713 --> 00:39:02,131 Did we get the meeting? 601 00:39:04,300 --> 00:39:05,801 It doesn't look good. 602 00:39:11,140 --> 00:39:13,642 We took tango lessons. 603 00:39:13,642 --> 00:39:15,978 We were one of two gay couples in the class. 604 00:39:15,978 --> 00:39:17,021 No one cared. 605 00:39:18,189 --> 00:39:19,982 That's San Francisco. 606 00:39:21,108 --> 00:39:23,319 How long have you two been together? 607 00:39:23,319 --> 00:39:24,695 Seventeen years. 608 00:39:26,322 --> 00:39:28,824 We were... We were babies when we met. 609 00:39:29,408 --> 00:39:30,659 Oh. 610 00:39:30,659 --> 00:39:32,870 I don't know if it was love at first sight, 611 00:39:32,870 --> 00:39:34,580 but we met in college 612 00:39:34,580 --> 00:39:37,249 and moved in together right away. 613 00:39:37,249 --> 00:39:40,252 We haven't been apart for more than a week since. 614 00:39:40,252 --> 00:39:43,714 ♪ What chance would I have ♪ 615 00:39:43,714 --> 00:39:49,220 ♪ Why let the fire start? ♪ 616 00:39:49,220 --> 00:39:53,557 ♪ I long to know ♪ 617 00:39:53,557 --> 00:39:58,312 ♪ The thrill of your sweet embrace ♪ 618 00:39:59,897 --> 00:40:04,860 ♪ Yet when we're face to face ♪ 619 00:40:04,860 --> 00:40:09,407 ♪ I just look at you ♪ 620 00:40:28,801 --> 00:40:33,764 ♪ I long to know ♪ 621 00:40:35,099 --> 00:40:40,104 ♪ The thrill of your sweet embrace ♪ 622 00:40:41,647 --> 00:40:46,652 ♪ Yet when we're face to face... ♪ 623 00:40:47,987 --> 00:40:49,280 It's funny. 624 00:40:50,614 --> 00:40:51,615 What? 625 00:40:54,660 --> 00:40:56,454 When I get that job... 626 00:40:59,331 --> 00:41:00,958 we'll be colleagues. 627 00:41:02,835 --> 00:41:04,837 We'll see each other every day. 628 00:41:16,015 --> 00:41:17,016 Skippy. 629 00:41:23,522 --> 00:41:24,815 Skippy. 630 00:41:25,983 --> 00:41:27,234 What? 631 00:41:28,194 --> 00:41:29,236 You were making noises. 632 00:41:29,862 --> 00:41:31,489 I was worried. 633 00:41:31,489 --> 00:41:33,532 - I'm okay. - All right. 634 00:41:38,829 --> 00:41:40,206 I'm cold. 635 00:41:47,880 --> 00:41:49,423 - Hawk. - Yeah? 636 00:41:51,383 --> 00:41:55,471 Hawk, the do-not-resuscitate-order... 637 00:41:58,349 --> 00:41:59,892 I'm not gonna sign it. 638 00:42:01,894 --> 00:42:05,356 If something happens to me, I want them to bring me back. 639 00:42:07,900 --> 00:42:09,693 I wanna fight. 640 00:42:12,071 --> 00:42:13,364 Good. 641 00:42:15,241 --> 00:42:16,617 I'm glad. 642 00:42:23,707 --> 00:42:26,126 - I'll get the nurse. - No. Don't. 643 00:42:26,752 --> 00:42:28,128 Don't go. 644 00:42:31,966 --> 00:42:34,260 ♪ mellow music ♪ 645 00:42:43,602 --> 00:42:44,812 Here. 646 00:42:49,733 --> 00:42:51,610 It's all right, buddy. 647 00:43:07,626 --> 00:43:08,836 That better? 648 00:43:10,045 --> 00:43:12,006 Oh, yeah. 649 00:43:18,470 --> 00:43:20,431 I feel like I'm fading away. 650 00:43:23,225 --> 00:43:27,104 I'm disappearing a little every day. 651 00:43:31,734 --> 00:43:33,652 No, I'm here. 652 00:43:35,404 --> 00:43:36,655 I've got you. 653 00:43:39,825 --> 00:43:41,243 I've got you. 654 00:43:47,333 --> 00:43:49,293 Come on, Dave. 655 00:43:49,293 --> 00:43:51,837 I can't get Lonigan to meet with your friend. 656 00:43:51,837 --> 00:43:54,340 Listen, if this was about the joke I made, 657 00:43:54,340 --> 00:43:55,799 I was just kidding around. 658 00:43:55,799 --> 00:43:59,428 AIDS is a touchy issue for the governor right now. 659 00:43:59,428 --> 00:44:02,139 Look, there's this thing, a fundraiser gala. 660 00:44:02,139 --> 00:44:03,849 I could get you a couple tickets. 661 00:44:03,849 --> 00:44:05,601 - When? - Friday night. 662 00:44:06,310 --> 00:44:08,145 Lonigan'll be there. 663 00:44:08,145 --> 00:44:09,855 I can arrange for you to have five minutes with him. 664 00:44:09,855 --> 00:44:12,274 Maybe he'll agree to see Lucy's friend at some point. 665 00:44:12,274 --> 00:44:14,818 At some point? No, that's not good enough. 666 00:44:14,818 --> 00:44:16,654 I promised him, Dave! 667 00:44:19,698 --> 00:44:20,991 You don't understand. 668 00:44:22,201 --> 00:44:23,202 I owe him. 669 00:44:24,036 --> 00:44:25,079 It's the best I can do. 670 00:44:25,079 --> 00:44:27,498 You said Lucy was in town. Bring her. 671 00:44:38,550 --> 00:44:39,551 Skippy. 672 00:44:41,845 --> 00:44:44,014 I don't suppose you happen to own a tuxedo. 673 00:44:48,185 --> 00:44:50,562 Roy Cohn, the lawyer and right-hand man 674 00:44:50,562 --> 00:44:52,314 to the late Senator Joseph McCarthy 675 00:44:52,314 --> 00:44:56,193 during the infamous Red Scare of the 1950s, is dead. 676 00:44:56,193 --> 00:44:59,530 Cohn died today in Bethesda, Maryland, at the age of 59. 677 00:44:59,530 --> 00:45:02,157 The causes were a heart attack and complications 678 00:45:02,157 --> 00:45:06,578 from the HTLV-III virus, which is thought to cause AIDS. 679 00:45:06,578 --> 00:45:09,081 The last two decades of his career were marred-- 680 00:45:13,711 --> 00:45:14,878 Roy Cohn died. 681 00:45:17,214 --> 00:45:20,008 Guess that fucker was human after all. 682 00:45:20,008 --> 00:45:21,719 - Hmm. - What do you think? 683 00:45:22,511 --> 00:45:24,221 It's just about Tim's size. 684 00:45:24,221 --> 00:45:26,306 Ah, got this too. 685 00:45:26,306 --> 00:45:28,642 Not officially black tie, but... 686 00:45:30,769 --> 00:45:31,770 What? 687 00:45:32,896 --> 00:45:34,106 It's always been you. 688 00:45:34,565 --> 00:45:35,941 Me? 689 00:45:37,067 --> 00:45:38,986 You've always been the stronger one. 690 00:45:40,863 --> 00:45:42,531 Always. 691 00:45:42,531 --> 00:45:43,615 He told you? 692 00:45:47,453 --> 00:45:49,246 It's gonna be okay. 693 00:45:49,246 --> 00:45:52,082 I... I just don't want to let him down. 694 00:45:52,082 --> 00:45:53,417 You won't, baby. 695 00:45:54,251 --> 00:45:55,252 We won't. 696 00:45:56,628 --> 00:45:58,630 We're here. 697 00:45:58,630 --> 00:46:00,424 Do you think Hawk has any idea what he's getting into? 698 00:46:01,842 --> 00:46:03,260 Not a clue. 699 00:46:06,180 --> 00:46:08,098 Almost there. 700 00:46:09,349 --> 00:46:11,643 There. You okay? 701 00:46:11,643 --> 00:46:13,228 - All right. - There he is, big guy. 702 00:46:13,228 --> 00:46:14,605 - There you go. - Thank you. 703 00:46:17,858 --> 00:46:19,067 Lucy. 704 00:46:19,067 --> 00:46:20,235 Hey. 705 00:46:20,986 --> 00:46:22,279 What are you doing home? 706 00:46:22,279 --> 00:46:23,614 Well, your mother left word for me. 707 00:46:23,614 --> 00:46:25,741 - The doctor was here? - I had a little scare, 708 00:46:25,741 --> 00:46:27,284 but it turned out to be nothing. 709 00:46:27,284 --> 00:46:29,620 Helen said you'd been feeling ill all week. 710 00:46:29,620 --> 00:46:31,371 You know how she exaggerates. 711 00:46:31,371 --> 00:46:33,207 I'm uncomfortable, but that's natural, 712 00:46:33,207 --> 00:46:34,625 and it's only a few hours a day. 713 00:46:35,334 --> 00:46:36,919 You never said anything. 714 00:46:36,919 --> 00:46:38,670 I tried you at the office but you were out. 715 00:46:39,838 --> 00:46:41,757 - Yesterday? - Yesterday. 716 00:46:41,757 --> 00:46:43,217 And the day before. 717 00:46:46,845 --> 00:46:47,888 I'm fine. 718 00:46:49,515 --> 00:46:52,434 It's a woman's job to worry about the baby. 719 00:46:52,434 --> 00:46:54,812 You have your work, I have mine. 720 00:46:54,812 --> 00:46:56,230 Go on. Go back to the office. 721 00:46:56,230 --> 00:46:57,523 Shoo. 722 00:46:59,608 --> 00:47:00,651 All right. 723 00:47:11,203 --> 00:47:12,663 I'll see you at dinner, then. 724 00:47:13,288 --> 00:47:14,498 Of course. 725 00:47:47,155 --> 00:47:49,741 ♪ pensive music ♪ 726 00:49:02,189 --> 00:49:03,231 I'm sorry. 727 00:49:57,869 --> 00:50:00,580 Mr. Fuller. Senate Affairs. 728 00:50:01,373 --> 00:50:02,833 That's right. 729 00:50:02,833 --> 00:50:04,501 What can I do for you? 730 00:50:05,877 --> 00:50:07,671 It's about a fellow who's getting close to a job 731 00:50:07,671 --> 00:50:09,881 in the Hungarian Refugee Relief program. 732 00:50:12,217 --> 00:50:13,385 His name? 733 00:50:15,554 --> 00:50:16,930 Timothy Laughlin. 734 00:50:18,181 --> 00:50:20,225 And the issue is? 735 00:50:21,560 --> 00:50:23,520 He's got a few problems in the area 736 00:50:23,520 --> 00:50:25,814 you once questioned me about. 737 00:50:28,066 --> 00:50:30,736 Osborne's office sent me this letter. 738 00:50:30,736 --> 00:50:33,905 I don't satisfy their security considerations. 739 00:50:33,905 --> 00:50:35,657 You know what that means? Somebody's told them that-- 740 00:50:35,657 --> 00:50:37,200 Shh. Calm down. 741 00:50:37,200 --> 00:50:39,327 Honest, Mary. Mary? 742 00:50:39,327 --> 00:50:40,579 I don't understand. 743 00:50:40,579 --> 00:50:43,081 I have lived a perfectly clean life in the Army. 744 00:50:43,081 --> 00:50:44,833 There isn't a soul in Washington who knows. 745 00:50:44,833 --> 00:50:46,334 It was Hawkins. 746 00:50:48,253 --> 00:50:49,713 No, that's impossible. 747 00:50:49,713 --> 00:50:51,423 He came to see me last night. 748 00:50:51,423 --> 00:50:52,549 He wanted me to tell you. 749 00:50:52,549 --> 00:50:53,884 That's why I invited you to lunch. 750 00:50:56,428 --> 00:50:58,138 He reported you to the M Unit. 751 00:51:01,600 --> 00:51:03,685 I don't understand. 752 00:51:03,685 --> 00:51:06,396 He wanted to do it now before you got the job, 753 00:51:06,396 --> 00:51:08,398 so there won't be an investigation. 754 00:51:08,398 --> 00:51:10,692 They'll just... You will be... 755 00:51:10,692 --> 00:51:14,529 Be banned from working for the federal government 756 00:51:14,529 --> 00:51:16,073 for the rest of my life. 757 00:51:20,535 --> 00:51:22,245 He knew how much I wanted that job. 758 00:51:25,624 --> 00:51:26,750 Why? 759 00:51:27,751 --> 00:51:29,586 You'd become inconvenient. 760 00:51:29,586 --> 00:51:30,629 No. 761 00:51:32,589 --> 00:51:34,049 - He isn't like that. - He is. 762 00:51:35,759 --> 00:51:37,636 He is exactly like that. 763 00:51:40,639 --> 00:51:43,058 - I have to see him. - You can't. 764 00:51:43,683 --> 00:51:44,893 Lucy went into labor. 765 00:51:44,893 --> 00:51:46,061 They've been at Sibley Memorial all night. 766 00:51:56,780 --> 00:51:58,073 Thanks. 767 00:52:03,829 --> 00:52:07,457 ♪ I can dream about you ♪ 768 00:52:07,457 --> 00:52:09,292 ♪ If I can't hold you tonight... ♪ 769 00:52:09,292 --> 00:52:10,335 Here you go. 770 00:52:12,170 --> 00:52:15,298 ♪ I can dream about you... ♪ 771 00:52:16,091 --> 00:52:17,425 What? 772 00:52:17,425 --> 00:52:19,469 It feels like we're on a date. 773 00:52:19,469 --> 00:52:22,639 I should warn you, I may make a pass. 774 00:52:23,974 --> 00:52:25,642 A girl can hope, can't she? 775 00:52:31,857 --> 00:52:33,275 Parts? 776 00:52:33,275 --> 00:52:34,860 Oh. There's Dave. 777 00:52:36,194 --> 00:52:37,404 You ready? 778 00:52:42,742 --> 00:52:43,910 Yeah. 779 00:52:44,536 --> 00:52:45,954 All right, all right. 780 00:52:49,040 --> 00:52:50,667 Nice to see you. So glad you could come. 781 00:52:50,667 --> 00:52:52,335 Enjoy the evening. 782 00:52:52,335 --> 00:52:54,379 - Dave. - Hawk. 783 00:52:54,379 --> 00:52:56,339 Lucy couldn't make it, so I brought the friend 784 00:52:56,339 --> 00:52:57,841 - I was telling you about. - Ah. 785 00:52:57,841 --> 00:52:59,968 Dave Holm. Tim Laughlin. 786 00:53:01,428 --> 00:53:02,679 Nice to meet you. 787 00:53:08,018 --> 00:53:10,353 We're looking forward to meeting Mr. Lonigan. 788 00:53:10,353 --> 00:53:12,480 Maybe even the governor, if he makes an appearance. 789 00:53:12,480 --> 00:53:14,608 - I'm not sure Howard's here. - He's right there. 790 00:53:16,860 --> 00:53:18,111 Oh, right. 791 00:53:18,111 --> 00:53:20,363 Well, I don't want to interrupt him right now. 792 00:53:20,363 --> 00:53:23,658 Maybe later. But, uh, I can't make any promises. 793 00:53:23,658 --> 00:53:25,452 Dave, he came all this way to meet Lonigan-- 794 00:53:25,452 --> 00:53:26,536 - It's fine. - We're not leaving. 795 00:53:26,536 --> 00:53:27,579 It's fine. 796 00:53:29,372 --> 00:53:31,041 We'll wait. 797 00:53:32,542 --> 00:53:34,085 I'm gonna get some air. 798 00:53:40,592 --> 00:53:42,177 Look, Hawk, 799 00:53:42,177 --> 00:53:43,887 the governor's gonna veto the AIDS bill anyway, 800 00:53:43,887 --> 00:53:45,680 so introducing Lucy's friend to Lonigan, 801 00:53:46,598 --> 00:53:48,266 - it's a waste of time. - Oh. 802 00:53:49,226 --> 00:53:50,769 - No hard feelings. - Me? 803 00:53:51,811 --> 00:53:52,854 None. 804 00:53:57,651 --> 00:53:59,402 - Just to be clear... - What the fuck? 805 00:54:00,570 --> 00:54:02,197 Tim isn't Lucy's friend. 806 00:54:04,074 --> 00:54:05,867 He's my friend. 807 00:54:05,867 --> 00:54:08,078 He just got out of the hospital. 808 00:54:08,078 --> 00:54:10,455 I was there with him the whole time. 809 00:54:10,455 --> 00:54:12,916 I climbed into his bed and held him. 810 00:54:18,088 --> 00:54:19,589 Great party, Dave. 811 00:54:34,396 --> 00:54:36,773 - You okay? - Yeah. 812 00:54:39,067 --> 00:54:40,485 Skippy. 813 00:54:43,280 --> 00:54:45,448 A long time ago, I did something to hurt you. 814 00:54:46,866 --> 00:54:50,954 And I think, even being in your life hurt you 815 00:54:50,954 --> 00:54:52,289 - in some way. - Hawk. 816 00:54:52,831 --> 00:54:53,873 You don't have... 817 00:55:00,714 --> 00:55:05,302 I spent most of my life waiting for God to love me. 818 00:55:07,053 --> 00:55:09,180 And then I realized the only thing that matters 819 00:55:10,849 --> 00:55:12,642 is I love God. 820 00:55:17,188 --> 00:55:18,815 It's the same with you. 821 00:55:20,191 --> 00:55:21,484 I have loved you my whole life. 822 00:55:23,194 --> 00:55:26,573 I've never loved anyone but you. 823 00:55:28,533 --> 00:55:32,579 You were my great, consuming love. 824 00:55:34,497 --> 00:55:36,875 And most people don't get one of those. 825 00:55:39,002 --> 00:55:40,003 I did. 826 00:55:44,007 --> 00:55:45,508 I have no regrets. 827 00:56:01,608 --> 00:56:03,360 Mm. Would you look at that? 828 00:56:03,360 --> 00:56:04,402 Hmm? 829 00:56:07,113 --> 00:56:10,533 In public, and the world didn't come to an end. 830 00:56:15,622 --> 00:56:17,165 Tim. 831 00:56:19,250 --> 00:56:20,752 What are you doing here? 832 00:56:20,752 --> 00:56:21,878 I'll take your badge. 833 00:56:21,878 --> 00:56:23,338 Marcus is going inside with me. 834 00:56:23,338 --> 00:56:25,340 He needs your badge to get in. 835 00:56:25,340 --> 00:56:26,508 I don't understand. 836 00:56:26,508 --> 00:56:29,386 I knew Lonigan would refuse to see us. 837 00:56:30,762 --> 00:56:32,555 And we'd never get close to the Governor. 838 00:56:32,555 --> 00:56:33,890 And then... 839 00:56:33,890 --> 00:56:35,558 I invited you to the gala. 840 00:56:35,558 --> 00:56:37,394 I mean, it was very convenient. 841 00:56:42,023 --> 00:56:43,566 I think I've been used. 842 00:56:44,275 --> 00:56:45,318 A little. 843 00:56:48,363 --> 00:56:49,739 All right. 844 00:56:51,282 --> 00:56:54,327 Hey. Give us a minute? 845 00:57:02,961 --> 00:57:04,337 Look, whatever you're up to, 846 00:57:04,337 --> 00:57:05,880 and I don't want to know all the details, 847 00:57:06,714 --> 00:57:07,757 I'll wait for you. 848 00:57:08,466 --> 00:57:10,760 No. You need to go home. 849 00:57:12,220 --> 00:57:13,513 Where you belong. 850 00:57:13,513 --> 00:57:14,764 No. 851 00:57:15,640 --> 00:57:16,641 It's not... 852 00:57:20,145 --> 00:57:21,604 I want to stay. 853 00:57:23,231 --> 00:57:24,941 I have to fight this fight. 854 00:57:27,318 --> 00:57:29,487 That means letting go of everything else. 855 00:57:31,573 --> 00:57:35,952 And if you're around, I will not be able to let go. 856 00:57:35,952 --> 00:57:37,287 But I wanna show up for you. 857 00:57:37,287 --> 00:57:39,164 Go home, Hawk. 858 00:57:42,500 --> 00:57:43,501 Please. 859 00:57:45,670 --> 00:57:47,130 Make it easy for me. 860 00:57:48,840 --> 00:57:51,217 ♪ mellow music ♪ 861 00:58:06,566 --> 00:58:07,650 Hey, Skippy. 862 00:58:13,740 --> 00:58:15,200 Promise you won't write. 863 00:58:18,203 --> 00:58:19,829 I won't. 864 00:58:39,307 --> 00:58:40,350 Thank you. 865 00:58:40,350 --> 00:58:42,018 I'm honored to be representing 866 00:58:42,018 --> 00:58:44,187 Governor Deukmejian tonight, 867 00:58:44,187 --> 00:58:47,273 a candidate who can lead this party and this state 868 00:58:47,273 --> 00:58:48,858 into the 21st century. 869 00:58:50,401 --> 00:58:52,445 Governor Deukmejian is grateful 870 00:58:52,445 --> 00:58:54,948 for your support tonight, ladies and gentlemen. 871 00:58:54,948 --> 00:58:57,033 And I hope you will do everything you can 872 00:58:57,033 --> 00:58:59,661 to help keep him in his seat as California's governor. 873 00:58:59,661 --> 00:59:00,870 Your help is essential 874 00:59:00,870 --> 00:59:02,288 in securing the gains we've made 875 00:59:02,288 --> 00:59:05,208 and keeping this great state moving forward. 876 00:59:06,584 --> 00:59:09,045 ♪ suspenseful music ♪ 877 00:59:25,019 --> 00:59:27,438 And our governor is a champion 878 00:59:27,438 --> 00:59:29,691 of the opportunity society of the future. 879 00:59:41,536 --> 00:59:44,789 Uh, the Fullers. They just had a baby. Where-- 880 00:59:44,789 --> 00:59:46,833 Mr. Fuller went home to change, 881 00:59:46,833 --> 00:59:48,334 and I believe Mrs. Fuller is resting. 882 00:59:52,755 --> 00:59:55,508 All right, one moment. Let me go and check. 883 01:00:03,933 --> 01:00:05,101 - Let's go. - Governor Deukmejian 884 01:00:05,101 --> 01:00:06,352 is grateful-- 885 01:00:06,352 --> 01:00:08,521 - Excuse me. Gentleman-- - Get it. 886 01:00:08,521 --> 01:00:10,523 - I got it. - Excuse me. 887 01:00:10,523 --> 01:00:11,774 What are you people doing? 888 01:00:11,774 --> 01:00:13,109 This way, sir. 889 01:00:14,319 --> 01:00:15,862 I got it. Here. 890 01:00:15,862 --> 01:00:17,697 - All right. - Yes. Got it. 891 01:00:17,697 --> 01:00:19,907 - Ready? - Yes. 892 01:00:22,952 --> 01:00:27,790 Three thousand Californians with HIV have died. 893 01:00:27,790 --> 01:00:29,626 But Governor Deukmejian 894 01:00:29,626 --> 01:00:32,462 continues to veto legislation to protect us. 895 01:00:32,462 --> 01:00:34,297 We're not dying from AIDS, 896 01:00:34,297 --> 01:00:37,133 we're dying from indifference. 897 01:00:37,133 --> 01:00:39,469 Our government is killing us! 898 01:00:39,469 --> 01:00:41,179 AIDS funding now! 899 01:00:41,179 --> 01:00:43,431 Our government is killing us! 900 01:00:43,431 --> 01:00:45,016 AIDS funding now! 901 01:00:45,016 --> 01:00:46,809 Our government is killing us! 902 01:00:46,809 --> 01:00:48,603 AIDS funding now! 903 01:00:54,442 --> 01:00:59,238 ♪ Love is overtaking me ♪ 904 01:01:01,866 --> 01:01:04,160 ♪ And my heart ♪ 905 01:01:04,160 --> 01:01:09,248 ♪ Pounds out your name in the night ♪ 906 01:01:09,248 --> 01:01:10,708 Lucy. 907 01:01:13,544 --> 01:01:18,049 ♪ It's the same when I see you cry ♪ 908 01:01:19,801 --> 01:01:23,012 ♪ And it's waking my heart up ♪ 909 01:01:23,012 --> 01:01:26,182 ♪ And it's breaking my heart ♪ 910 01:01:26,182 --> 01:01:29,352 ♪ But mostly, taking it over ♪ 911 01:01:29,352 --> 01:01:33,690 ♪ Like the sun shines gloriously ♪ 912 01:01:33,690 --> 01:01:35,650 ♪ Through the sky ♪ 913 01:01:38,361 --> 01:01:41,739 ♪ I know it seems like we just met ♪ 914 01:01:41,739 --> 01:01:45,326 ♪ Oh, but it's so different now ♪ 915 01:01:45,326 --> 01:01:51,874 ♪ Is it so different now? ♪ 916 01:01:51,874 --> 01:01:54,377 ♪ Is it so... ♪ 917 01:01:54,377 --> 01:02:02,051 Our government is killing us! AIDS funding now! 918 01:02:02,051 --> 01:02:04,178 Our government is killing us! 919 01:02:04,178 --> 01:02:06,806 AIDS funding now! 920 01:02:06,806 --> 01:02:10,309 ♪ I know you're shivering and you're wet ♪ 921 01:02:10,309 --> 01:02:13,688 ♪ Oh, but won't you please lie still? ♪ 922 01:02:13,688 --> 01:02:22,113 ♪ Won't you please lie still? ♪ 923 01:02:23,448 --> 01:02:26,534 ♪ Oh, it's just the way I feel ♪ 924 01:02:26,534 --> 01:02:30,163 ♪ Just the way I feel ♪ 925 01:02:39,797 --> 01:02:43,259 ♪ melancholic music ♪ 926 01:04:49,051 --> 01:04:50,136 Dad? 927 01:04:55,057 --> 01:04:56,142 You found him? 928 01:05:00,855 --> 01:05:02,064 It's beautiful. 929 01:05:08,487 --> 01:05:11,032 From what you've told me, it really suits your friend. 930 01:05:14,118 --> 01:05:15,119 Yeah. 931 01:05:16,662 --> 01:05:17,705 It does. 932 01:05:24,462 --> 01:05:26,297 - Sweetheart. - Hmm? 933 01:05:28,299 --> 01:05:29,926 He wasn't my friend. 934 01:05:34,221 --> 01:05:36,015 He was the man I loved. 935 01:05:38,142 --> 01:05:41,646 ♪ uplifting music ♪